Astrology
Dear Isabelle~
I was reading your book last night about the North and South Nodes, and when I read what you wrote in it about my Nodes, my boyfriend, Carl, said it was all ?magical thinking.? Well, you know what? I don?t care, because what you wrote about the Nodes, destiny, fate, and especially my North Node in Leo really touched something deep inside me and it felt right?very right. I also haven?t told you something. Not just about the fortune-tellers prediction?
OK?this is what happened: I was re-reading about my Nodes?my life direction and soul purpose as you say?and it was so synchronistic that you used Joni Mitchell as an example of this North Node Leo pattern! You said it was ?time to come in from the cold.? Did you know that?s a line from one of her songs? And?I was listening to that song at the exact moment of reading your words about North Node Leo to Carl --talk about synchronicity!
You said: ? The soul purpose here is to create loving connections with others in order to heal a sense of being the outsider or the persecuted one. By leaving behind harsh judgments of myself or others, the idea now in this life is to ?come in from the cold? and become one of us. Your need is to open your heart, and make your presence felt?dare to shine and step forward?be effective and compelling rather than being concerned about being right.?
Then you said that the ?shadow with these Nodes is an entrenched fear that entices one to be controlling, inflexible or stubborn?but that having a sense of humor shows that one knows or can contain the pain of life, and can accept the drama of it all as well.?
OK, well here it is. I?m pregnant. And that astrologer was predicting that my relationship was going to break up when transiting Saturn reached my ?Seventh House? next winter?and he was also saying that unless I change something in me, I?ll never have a relationship! And then he started saying Scorpio Sun and Leo North Node was too controlling, that we?re drama queens, and yet I feel like an exile, not a queen! I feel ?out of the circle? as it is, different and alienated, and that?s my fear?that I don?t know how to love and be loved. That?s the South Node Aquarius that I coming from and can?t seem to leave behind.
Well, as I was reading this to Carl he just acted bored and like I was out of my mind, and I got really angry at him. I told him if he didn?t care for me and how I feel inside, then what were we about? I tried to point to his Nodes in your book, but he didn?t even want to look at his own patterns.
It got worse?I showed him the letter between us about my Moon in Cancer and we came to talking about children, and he said he didn?t want children. Period. And I said, guess what? I?m pregnant! Yes, it?s true. I cried, and apologized, and said it was all a big mistake, and he said?get an abortion. Nothing about how it was his ?mistake? too. Nothing about feelings or possibilities. Then my rage turned black, and I said yes I would?I?d get an abortion right now! I?m aborting you right now! I screamed. And I threw him out the door.
OK, some drama, I know. But with my back against the door, I started crying and then the tears stopped, and I felt and a certain coolness came over me. I?m angry at my own stupidity for choosing such a cold man, and that it had to come to this. Maybe I do need to dare (with my Aries rising) and to be open-hearted (Leo) and to stop holding it all inside and being secretive (my planets in Scorpio.) You once told me that ?the exiled heretic must take a stand and make a Presence in the world??do something big?well I made a big mistake with him. And now I have to decide what I really will do.
So this is the Saturn Return. So tell me what you think, and send me a copy of your chart too, if you don?t mind. Somehow studying astrology and spirituality while I?m dealing with all this feels like the only good thing happening right now.
Sadly,
Kendra
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Astrology
Private Papers of a Reluctant Astrologer: Fifth Letter
Dear Isabelle~
I was reading your book last night about the North and South Nodes, and when I read what you wrote in it about my Nodes, my boyfriend, Carl, said it was all ?magical thinking.? Well, you know what? I don?t care, because what you wrote about the Nodes, destiny, fate, and especially my North Node in Leo really touched something deep inside me and it felt right?very right. I also haven?t told you something. Not just about the fortune-tellers prediction?
OK?this is what happened: I was re-reading about my Nodes?my life direction and soul purpose as you say?and it was so synchronistic that you used Joni Mitchell as an example of this North Node Leo pattern! You said it was ?time to come in from the cold.? Did you know that?s a line from one of her songs? And?I was listening to that song at the exact moment of reading your words about North Node Leo to Carl --talk about synchronicity!
You said: ? The soul purpose here is to create loving connections with others in order to heal a sense of being the outsider or the persecuted one. By leaving behind harsh judgments of myself or others, the idea now in this life is to ?come in from the cold? and become one of us. Your need is to open your heart, and make your presence felt?dare to shine and step forward?be effective and compelling rather than being concerned about being right.?
Then you said that the ?shadow with these Nodes is an entrenched fear that entices one to be controlling, inflexible or stubborn?but that having a sense of humor shows that one knows or can contain the pain of life, and can accept the drama of it all as well.?
OK, well here it is. I?m pregnant. And that astrologer was predicting that my relationship was going to break up when transiting Saturn reached my ?Seventh House? next winter?and he was also saying that unless I change something in me, I?ll never have a relationship! And then he started saying Scorpio Sun and Leo North Node was too controlling, that we?re drama queens, and yet I feel like an exile, not a queen! I feel ?out of the circle? as it is, different and alienated, and that?s my fear?that I don?t know how to love and be loved. That?s the South Node Aquarius that I coming from and can?t seem to leave behind.
Well, as I was reading this to Carl he just acted bored and like I was out of my mind, and I got really angry at him. I told him if he didn?t care for me and how I feel inside, then what were we about? I tried to point to his Nodes in your book, but he didn?t even want to look at his own patterns.
It got worse?I showed him the letter between us about my Moon in Cancer and we came to talking about children, and he said he didn?t want children. Period. And I said, guess what? I?m pregnant! Yes, it?s true. I cried, and apologized, and said it was all a big mistake, and he said?get an abortion. Nothing about how it was his ?mistake? too. Nothing about feelings or possibilities. Then my rage turned black, and I said yes I would?I?d get an abortion right now! I?m aborting you right now! I screamed. And I threw him out the door.
OK, some drama, I know. But with my back against the door, I started crying and then the tears stopped, and I felt and a certain coolness came over me. I?m angry at my own stupidity for choosing such a cold man, and that it had to come to this. Maybe I do need to dare (with my Aries rising) and to be open-hearted (Leo) and to stop holding it all inside and being secretive (my planets in Scorpio.) You once told me that ?the exiled heretic must take a stand and make a Presence in the world??do something big?well I made a big mistake with him. And now I have to decide what I really will do.
So this is the Saturn Return. So tell me what you think, and send me a copy of your chart too, if you don?t mind. Somehow studying astrology and spirituality while I?m dealing with all this feels like the only good thing happening right now.
Sadly,
Kendra
- Are Your Planets Lobbying For Their Own Agendas--or Are You Listening To Your North Node?
"Planets Lobbying for their Own Agendas" In the February issue of Mountain Astrologer, Laurence Hillman did a great job of explaining the Nodes, especially in saying that they operate on a soul level rather than a personality...
- Jan Spiller's "astrology For The Soul" And Elizabeth Spring's "north Node Astrology"
Jan Spiller?s ?Astrology for the Soul?and Elizabeth Spring's "North Node Astrology" There are some strange ideas on the Nodes floating about out there in the cyber-world, however Jan's theories are well founded in the fundamental principals...
- North Node As Gateway, South Node As Essence
How interesting it is that the South Node is often the essence of the first part of life and the North Node can be seen as the gateway to the second part of life. There is no automatic passing through this door, but rather a gradual movement based on...
- Squares To The Nodes: The "skipped Step"
Squares to the Nodes?Your Karmic ?Skipped Step? How do you get to your North Node? How do you know how best to prioritize things? What has been left unresolved karmically from past lives? At this point, you understand the idea of the...
- Moon's Node Reversal
At the time when the moon?s nodes are reversed, issues around life direction and soul purpose are up for examination and decision-making. It?s a time that holds great potential for crisis and transformation, and no matter what we do externally, on an...